So the past week, I've been destroying her, like everyday. She would lock herself in the bathroom and cry. Once she cried for 3 hours. The next day we got into this big argument about the beating and how it makes her really distressed or something. Then she started ignoring me and avoiding me and giving me this look like I did something wrong. I think the other day she started taking these white pills and I'm not sure what they were. I think I'm losing her because I beat her too much.
I don't want this to happen but when I beat her it gives me this satisfaction I can't explain. But if I stop then she'll think she's better than she really is. What should I do? Should I beat her only a little bit? I am getting sick of this but she keeps asking me to play snakes and ladders and she takes it really seriously. Should I let her win?
